On my beautiful-women picture blog, I took pleasure in posting pictures of models who were better known to the general public by sight than by name - women who were not household names and were superstars only within the modeling profession itself. One such woman is Deborah Bremer.
Another such woman is Deborah Brener.
"Hey, Steve," you must be saying right now, "those two women look awfully similar - and their names are only one letter apart? Weird!" No, it isn't weird at all. They're the same woman, and her name is spelled properly the second time - "Brener," not "Bremer."
How did this happen? In 2020, I posted two pictures of Deborah Brener on my blog, with her surname properly spelled for the file names but spelled wrong in the title and text of the post. Then in 2024, having forgotten about this post, I posted three more pictures of this woman, but this time, I got the surname right. And as that great American philosopher Billy Joel once said, getting it right the first time is the main thing; getting it right the next time is not the same thing.
Alas, this isn't the only time I screwed up. In 2017, I found pictures of this really gorgeous 1980s model by the name of Susan Smith, and of course, I posted them to my blog. Here's one of them.
Then in 2024, I found a picture of another 1980s model by the very common name of Susan Smith, a monochromatic sepia exposure. I posted that.
Nope - it's the same Susan Smith I featured seven years before.
I screwed up with even the big names in modeling that everyone knows about. Earlier this year, I posted a picture of Angie Everhart, presenting her as a new subject on my blog, a woman I hadn't featured before. In fact, I had featured her before - in 2014. This, of course, helped screw up my ongoing count as to exactly how many different women I celebrated on my blog.
All of this sloppiness surfaced as I went from month to month through my blog's archives, revealing not just these mistakes but also misaligned paragraphs, typos that escaped my attention, and the same potboiler dishwater text to describe actresses I'd only heard of twenty minutes earlier ("_____ is another up-and-coming star in Hollywood"). But sloppiness regarding the pictures is probably my biggest regret. I posted a black-and-white picture of Dutch actress Famke Janssen and a color photo of French actress Catherine Deneuve relatively recently, thinking they were great shots and wondered why I hadn't posted these pictures of the two European actresses sooner. In fact, I already had! I regularly repeated subjects, which I would call a "retrospect" post, but in these two instances I actually posted the exact same two pictures twice each!
I'm actually looking forward to taking my blog down at the end of the month at this point.
I let myself cave to the pressure of maintaining a blog by feeling the need to post on a regular schedule, once every three of four days, and always having to come up with new names and faces to keep my audience engaged and coming back for more. The sloppiness I just described is easily the worst by-product of such pressure - for keeping a blog that used to be fun - by a wide margin. The sloppiness - which I tried hard to avoid and thought I had - couldn't continue, and there was too much of it to repair. Blogs are immediate, and blog posts are ephemeral. Correcting a blog post weeks, months or years after it's been originally published hardly matters after all of the people who were ever going to view it already have done so.
Perhaps the most ironic mistake I made was when I featured actress Jessica Chastain in March 2018. On the post for her, I wrote, "Jessica Chastain is an actress who specializes in playing strong women with flaws. But there's nothing flawless about her acting." Oops! I meant to say that there was nothing "flawed" about her acting, and a friend of mine, embarrassingly, noticed the error before I did. I fixed it only a couple of hours or so after my friend alerted me to the error, but I was still embarrassed. Finding these more recently surfaced errors just embarrasses me even more.
Given all of that, that guy from the YouTube channel who made me take down pictures of actresses he had worked with and made me decide that I couldn't go on with the blog did me . . . a huge favor.
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I just finished culling pictures of every model I ever included on my blog onto a flash drive for a future model-oriented Web site I hope to start. Many of these women were models who were completely unknown to the public, the kind of models who posed in print ads or in pictures that came with the picture frames one might buy at Target. I also found that there were 217 - 217! - models I posted at least three pictures of over time. For those who want to know . . . the model I posted the most pictures of was German model Margrit Ramme. I posted 80 of them, one of which is shown here. 😍
Karen Graham, the legendary Estée Lauder model, came in second at 79 photos, while beauty-product model Catherine Roberts was third with 78 pictures. Pretty close. Beverly Johnson was in fourth place with 61 pictures, while Nancy Donahue was in fifth place with 46 pictures.
While I'm not surprised that there are more pictures of Beverly Johnson on my blog than any other black model, by the way, she is not the black model I posted the most pictures of. Sheila Johnson (no relation) had until early 2023 been the most ubiquitous black model on my blog - with 66 pictures. But as I
explained back in March, I had been a friend of hers on social media and, as it turned out, she accused me behind my back of invading her privacy for the unforgivable sin of posting on her Facebook timeline lots of pictures of her that I'd found. She should have been the black model I posted the most pictures of on my blog, but I had to take all of those pictures down and delete more pictures I'd planned to post. I was hurt and infuriated by what she did to me. Sheila Johnson was one of those black women in the modeling profession that I had always revered for her beauty and her grace. Along with Beverly Johnson, she opened my eyes to how beautiful a woman of what used to be called the Negro race could be, and this Caucasian male always regarded her as a standard of black feminine beauty. To have been proverbially slapped in the face by a woman I once celebrated was a huge blow.
It is in this situation, this whole mess of a blog I created, that I am more than eager to erase it. As for the Web site I plan to create in its stead, don't hold your breath waiting for it to launch; it's going to take me a long time to put such a project together.
And I don't even plan to start right away.
I need a break from all of this beauty.